Lead of Love

It feels like everything and nothing are going around and around in my head right now.

This past weekend was Executive Council Retreat. I was pleasantly surprised. For the most part, we bonded extremely well and were pretty productive and still had a lot of fun. It's a very random group, but I think we mesh a whole heck of a lot better than I was expecting. I really think it has something to do with the fact that none of us are super good friends with the others.... it kinda gives us all a blank slate, more or less. Pretty cool.

My sandals are starting to smell pretty bad. This is not a good sign. It took my last pair of sandals almost a whole year to start smelling like this.... and I've only been wearing this pair for a few months.

I just finished going through the books of Judges and Ruth. Judges pretty much rocked my world. I saw in the Israelites my own propensity to play the harlot after gods that don't satisfy. It was like seeing a mirror image of yourself. I would find myself just asking in frustration, "why don't they just get it and choose to love God?!?" and then I realized that I fail in this same way so often. I am thankful for a merciful and faithful God.

Sin has long-lasting consequences. I really don't know what to say about certain things. I think I'm enduring punishment for something I didn't do; but then again, I've gotten away with a lot.... so I guess it works out. I really don't know what to say. It's kinda frustrating, but I should've expected it. Some people don't change. Some people don't want to think others change.

God answers prayer. I've prayed to be humbled and He's done it. I've prayed for wisdom and He's given it (although I could use a lot more). I've prayed that He would do whatever it takes to bring me closer to Him and He's done it, is continuing to do it, and I trust will still do it. It makes me think of the Caedmon's Call song, "Lead of Love".

I've got a ton of homework to do, so I better get going. Hopefully I'll produce a more exhorting and uplifting post soon.

Adios.